Drama a la work
Mood:  spacey
Now Playing: Eric Prydz - Call On Me
Topic: Many jobs/ boys
Hi everyone! Okay so work drama...and too much of it. On Saturday I went to work (grocery store) for my 1-6 shift and when I got up to the staff area, Colin, this guy I work with, was like...waiting for me up there. I can't remember if he was there when I got in or if he came after I turned my back and started to sign in. However, he KNEW I was working 1-6 because he had the same shift. I kind of have weird feelings for him. I like him and I like to flirt with him and I'm somewhat attracted to him but I don't know if he feels the same way. Mainly because I don't know him well enough and I don't know how he treats girls he likes (or doesn't like). I could just be a new friend to him. His only real other friend at work that's a girl is Carolyn so I'll have to watch him together. He always goes on about how I'm one of the only people at work he can talk to etc etc. And he opens doors for me and does some other things...you have to meet him to understand. I mean he's as LAID BACK as laid back can be. He seems very unromantic-type so when he does these things you kind of wonder if he's always like that or if maybe he feels something...As well, I got to leave work early because business was slowly and he seemed genuinely unhappy to see me leave...
Anywho so the drama begins at my other work, Lynx Baseball club. There's this guy I work with Jeremy who I've been flirty with for over a month but I don't have any real feelings for him AT ALL. I'm just kind a natural flirt, as in I get along with guys very well. But I think he picked up some non-existant signals and now it seems he has serious feelings for me. Now, background info before I go on: he has very little confidence, he is VERY if not OVERLY horny (even for a guy), he's very socially inept. Okay so those are the main things to know about him. K' so I ended up "hanging out" with him (going to a movie) and it ended up being a date (NOT my intentions.) I wasn't that hung up on it though, I just well...wanted to go home pretty soon! haha. So when he went to drop me home from our "date" he mumbled 'i love you' as I went to get up from the car. I played as if I didn't hear him because he said it very mumbley-ish so I guess he perceived that I didn't hear it. THEN he said louldy enough so that I could hear, 'where's my kiss'. I was like, oh shit...so I kind of flirty-played stupid and ...yeah it worked (I didnt have to kiss him). But now he really has feelings for me and I don't know what to do.
I went to work today and I was working with him. I was hungover so I just acted like I was in a bad mood (I was but I played it up a bit as to avoid convo.) So I acted kind of bitchy. Then when we were closing, this guy Sam that I work with (who I genuinely have a crush on) came to help us and I forgot about being bitchy and my mood improved entirely. WELL Jeremy noticed right away and started acting like a jealous boyfriend. It was fucking ridiculous. We (Sam, Jeremy and I) were in the freight elevator and I was talking and flirting with Sam sort of and I mentioned that I was feeling better. Jeremy retorted in an angry way "Yeah Romeo over here showed up" and pointed to Sam. I was really pissed off because 1.) it was embarassing and 2.)he had no right to be mad. We're not going out and I can flirt with whoever I want to. I guess his feelings were hurt and I feel bad that I might have led him on but I wish he would keep his fucking mouth shut and talk to me afterwards. He said other stuff too that pissed me off but I won't get into it. The other stuff was worse and I'd just rather not remember it. The thing is, is that even if I did like him back, he's leaving to North Bay (8 hours away) so what's the point of starting a relationship? The truth is, is that he thinks I'm the one who will break his virginity because we joked about that and he actually wants to lose it NOW and thinks I'm going to be the one to do it. He invited me to his house to get drunk on Monday. I'm like...err..no? Frig, I just want to lose my guilt over this though. I feel like I did something wrong but I don't know what! Maybe because I possibly lead him on? I had no intentions of doing so though, that stuff gets messy. Argh, anyways, 18 days till my first day of university! OOber excited. Can't wait till FROOOOSSSHHHH!!!
I'll update soon!